Yes, that just about sums up my entire feelings towards the matter. I seriously do not have the patience to deal with all of this shit right now. But I do have a positive outlook on this; I like to think that when this entire thing is over, I know that Junior year is that much closer to being over. One semester down, and one horrifically and significantly more difficult semester to go...
My dad made resolutions this year to stop drinking, of course this excludes occasions when he goes out to eat and drink with friends or business people. But he has done a very good job of not drinking when he comes home from work, contrary to his previous habits. He usually just washed his dinner down with some Jim Beam and lie down on the couch to watch some T.V., but he'd be snoring by the time it's 8:30PM. I must say, that my father's become happier and more playful. Let me explain:
Oh, stop looking so surprised, your dad does it all the time. (My mother is actually laughing.)I've been thinking of college lately, more seriously I mean. It all started when I got my SAT scores back. I was so happy when I calculated my score, but to my dismay, my parents suggest I take it over. So I suppose I should be unhappy with it. But since then, I've been researching all my "dream" schools to see which ones my scores match up with. Even more so, I've ventured into the Career Center looking at catalogs for college; like FAFSA, Cal Grants, UCs, etc. They're actually quite interesting and I can tell that they'll be helpful. I just wish I knew that the same material was there two years ago, when I was a freshman. In any case, I'll comment on anything interesting I may read.
I really don't have very many friends. People view me as some sort of bubbling pot of laughter and enthusiasm. More often than not, people with these personality traits are more likely to have an entire entourage of carbon-copies, thus forming cliques. But this is hardly the category I fall into. Now, this is not to say that I'm not happy underneath. Yes, there are some parts of my life which I wish to refine, but I cannot honestly say that my life, in its entirety, is miserable. I have a fun family and a few very close friends. But I am granted with the misfortune of having all of my best friends attend different high schools. One of my best friends from eighth grade moved to Tracy, and thus eroding any sort of bestfriendship we may have been able to create; my other best friend attends a private Catholic school, or Bellarmine; and my best friend of all, Isabella, goes to Independence. This only leaves me with Samantha, the only one of my best friends from middle school who goes to my high school. I love Samantha, but she's found her own niche that I would hate to take her away from everyday. So what do I do? I wander. I wander around campus during breaks and lunches, hopping around from group to group. Thankfully, people don't raise an eyebrow when I suddenly pop into conversation. Thankfully, people think that I have such an effervescent personality that they just assume that it's my nature to be so awkwardly friendly.
My boss recently called me yesterday. This pleased me a lot, a LOT. He told me that if I come back for the third year, there would be a raise involved and, as always, I will be able to reap the benefits. I was actually not really thinking about going back to work again this summer just so I could focus on writing my Personal Statement and finish it before school started; working on creating instructional folders for my teachers whom I want to write my recommendations; searching for scholarship money. But I suppose an offer for a $2k paycheck for working only seven weeks can really force a girl to re-work some of her plans.
And for those of you who might have been a bit disturbed by the previous picture...
Don't worry, my mom got him back. :]
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